i feel... like really happy right now.

this is the one you saw raquel... it has a robot... xD

i forgot that when i started this blog i actually wanted to post art. then i remembered... like a few seconds ago... so here's a painting i just painted...

it's not that impressive.  and a lot of people might not even call it art at all.  but i didn't even rly try to make it visually stunning.  actually i didn't try to make it anything... i just did it because i wanted to...  every time i make art i try to make it... u know... all this and that and stuff.  but this time i just painted whatever came to mind.  which is actually hard for me.  i've always tried to make each piece of art i do perfect.  not just like the lines all strait and smooth and stuff.  i mean as i painted i was continually questioning what i was doing worrying about ruining the painting. i don't do that when i have a reference of course just when i'm painting from my head.  most people have this thing against abstract art...  but then again most people are uptight.  anyway i think abstract takes a lot of skill.  it's not so much about ur ability to manipulate paint than so much to to be bold and fearless letting ur own creativity come out.  the only way you could understand it is if u tried it ur self.  if you've ever looked at abstract art and said that's not real art, try this...  bye a canvas take some paint and paint what ever comes to mind first.  let ur impulses guide u completely (that's not as easy as u think.)  then when ur done take a pic and post it to facebook clamming that you are an artist and that this is you expressing yourself through art.  try it... i dare u... O.O

this is after i did an effect to it... it actually looks kinda cool now.